heh... really?

i think it has been ages since i've been blogging. as i think most bloggers would agree, the idea comes flowing more when one is in need, one is in a dilemma or is evolving. at least for me, the idea seem stagnant these days.

i remembered discussing about blogging with friends who also blog, monkey years ago... that we'll keep on blogging so that we can update ourselves no matter how far we may be. hmm... i guess i did not actually kept my end of the bargain. *sorry*

the thing is these days... finding time is one issue. but let alone that, idea is lagging. i can always talk about my little star, the bables, the pooh, the tantrum etc... but i think as much as it can be entertaining, it can be quite personal to me and can be annoying to some. so... i rather not. and forgive me dear, i think you have become my oulet these days, my place to reconcile my thoughts, my worry, my heartache, my share of joy. for that, i cannot thank you enough....

wahhh... mellow already... aiyakk! see... that's why i haven't been blogging. age is catching up. oh nooo... ahahaha.

i guess today i just feel like writing again. to somehow rekinder those days when my thoughts appear in letters. and all of these i can safely said, may well be because of the interviews that's been hovering over my head for about a month now... and for a few weeks longer *huhuhuh*

nota kaki: as per previous entry, i hate being in "spotlight"... and to add to that, i also hate the fact that i have to "sell" myself to do my job. urghhh... interviews. the pretentious few hours that will decide on one's job. *horror*

i think i've tried hard last time with not so much joy that at this point... i felt like braving the wind and be myself. take it or leave it? can i be that bold to them? hah.. we'll see.